Well todays the day......Since i didn't come up with my rent,ther are starting the eviction process..A couple of organization that i have gone thru that i called today for any kind of update on assistance one tells me that you need to join a class & they havr been holding my paper work since july & the other one i can't even get in touch with any more!I tell if i didn't have any bad luck,i wouldn't have any @ all!!!It sadens me to know that you work your for almost 20yrs,you helped people out numerous times without looking for anything,& now that the tables are turned,not one person you helped are organization steps up to help you!!I see now why peoples trust in anything is the way it is cause now i myself has turned a sour stomach towards alot of organizations as well as people.Its a bitter sweet situation cause now i am put in the position to who to trust and not trust???Do you trust anyone @ this point cause nobodies word is there bond any more!!!I pray that if & when i do get out of this situation to never put my kids thru this again!Back in 2000 i was homeless cause the father of my kids decided to take my money & buy drugs & be with other woman.At that time i had a 1yr old son & i was pregnant with my daughter.Can you imangine being homeless in the middle of winter sleeping in an abondon house??Thats what i did & as soon as i saw my window open,i went thru it & never looked backed!!!Now i'm facing eviction because of the economy & again i'm reliving the yr.2000 except now i have five kids & winter is approaching!!!I made a promise to evryone of my children to "NEVER"have the homeless & to "ALWAYS" protect them!!!I feel like such a failure cause everday i have to look @ them knowing i let them down as there mother,knowing that one day we will be sitting outside not cause we want to but we have to!!!I know that there is somebody out there,that might be able to help,but either they don't want to are that they been burned by so many people that they don't know what are who to believe.But i assure you that all my information is true,& if i could scan every eviction notice i have & post it i would,but this computer is not as modern as some & i don't have a webcam.God knows my heart & He knows that i would "NEVER"put myself are my kids in a position to harm are hurt them,but now to be put thru this again,i often ask myself:Why would ther good Lord Bless me with five beautiful kids,if He knew i would be in the same situation again like i was 11 yrs.ago??Well i let off enough steam(for now),i thank everyone for the kind words & i will hold every thought & blessing close to me!!If there is anyone out there in my situation are worse,i will pray for y'all everyday,& all i can tell y'all is to "KEEP YOUR HEADS UP"cause you are already down so all you can do is climb back up!!Stay Blessed Everyone!!!
